Almost There

Almost There

 

        I keep this taped to my lap top,                                        as a daily reminder.

My site looks different, but the content is the same (and expanding!)

A few weeks ago, I was debating what to do with my blog. It’s something I really like to do, but felt limited by the semi healthy housewife name.  Last year around this time, I wracked my brain to come up with a blog name I liked and fit my interests. I landed on semi healthy housewife because that’s what I was. However, some of the things I wanted to write about didn’t fit into the semi healthy housewife theme.  Currently, I don’t want to write just about losing weight. There’s so much more going on in my life that I don’t want that to be the focus. Plus, I was feeling immense pressure to preform and that just isn’t me.

I’m still going to write about my infertility, as well as my journey of getting fit.  I’ll still post meals and  workouts I complete, as well my thoughts/feelings and current status as an infertile woman.

However, I’m going to write more about issues that affect me daily, like mental health and women’s issues, as well as current events.

And the truth is: I’m 34 years old and I have no idea who I am.

For years, I lived under a mask of trying to present a person who had it together. I smiled, I laughed, I was outgoing. And I was exhausted. My brain worked overtime to try to balance my outward persona and my inner one. I’ve lived most of my life parading around as someone else. I kept a close lid on my true identify for fear that I would alienate people I loved from my life. The truth is, I knew who I was. Broken, damaged and barely hanging on.

Anyone who is familiar with this set up, knows it doesn’t last forever. After a break down, I headed to therapy to try to pick up the pieces and live my life.  After a year working with a wonderful therapist, I’ve come to terms with my past (for the most part). Now it’s time to start finding out who I am and focusing on a future that isn’t catastrophic (oh, how my brain works.)

Getting Here

The new website idea was a much easier process for me this time around.

For one, the new name, Almost There, came from a fortune cookie.  It was something that perfectly described where I am in my life: Almost there. It was an effortless experience. I didn’t need to make a pros/cons list or overthink it (something I’m trying to work on daily.)

I look forward to sharing more with you about the ups and downs of my life, as well as stories and adventures I encounter along the way.

I’ll leave you with one of my new favorite quotes, by one of my new favorite authors.

“Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it.  Embracing our vulnerabilities is risky but not nearly as dangerous as giving up on love and belonging and joy – the experiences that make us the most vulnerable.  Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.”  Brene Brown, The Gifts of Imperfection

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